Found out the hard way that " Melon baller" has two meanings.

美国同性恋社交应用软件" 硬" 是到后来才知道 掏" 球" 器有两个意思。

Found out the hard way, when you do things that betray who you are, it can become very difficult to recognize yourself.

吃了不少苦头，一旦做了违背本性的事，再想认清自己就很困难。

Here is the second story that tied for first prize-the unforgettable experience of a woman who had to find out the hard way that " she couldn't get along without God" .

下面是并列一等奖的第二个故事——一个女人“离不开神”的艰难求索之路的难忘经历。