His troubles and internal struggles may be understood from the following fragment, which was found, without any date, amongst his papers, and appears to have formed the beginning of a letter to Wilhelm.

从以下片段可以了解他的烦恼和内心挣扎，这些片段是在他的文件中发现的， 没有任何日期，似乎构成了给威廉的一封信的开头。