I suppose it's better than being mown down in a hail of bullets.

我想那会比排山倒海的子弹要好一些吧。

I meditated long about myself, debating what I could do after a blow like this which had mown down every flower of my soul.

我对自己进行了长时间的沉思， 思考在像这样的打击摧毁了我灵魂的每一朵花之后我能做些什么。